Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Sunday, June 3, 2007
tired...can u help me?
ah....i really very tired of the damn life here...study study study.....the more i study...the more i want to go to hell....all of the things that i am studying now is not interesting at alll....i am not interested at all....ah...stress stress stress.....ah.....
i really tired of study all of these stupid things....these is not the life i want....the life i want is a bit relasxing...not studying 24 hours....maybe some of u might think that i am a lazy girl...no!!......i just prefer freedom....freedom in doing whatever things that i prefer and depend on my mood.....heard lots of ppl says that dentist can earn lots of money but....surprisingly...min who is always a materialistic girl...does not happy to hear that...in fact...i just feel like....dunno how to describe that feeling...but for sure is ...i dun love to hear this news....can any of u tell me?....what is going on with me?....i always thought that only urself understand urself the best...but in fact...not really...i dun understand myself very well...i dunno whether i love dentistry o not...what i know is i feel very suffering whenever i open my book and studying....damn it...wanna faiil it...dun want to study it also dont dare.....cos i scare i will disappoint my parents..my family members...
ah ma de....min supposingly to be an optimistic girl...always smilling and happy in front of the ppl...but at the back....i dun dare to let ppl know my sadness...maybe that is the way i protect myself.....whenever i feel really sad and stress....thanks god for letting me having some nice friends.....always willing to acc me whenever i need them....no matter how late i call them...they wil still receive my call and wont scold me....as u know....malaysia time is later than india for 2 1/2 hours....
can any of u tell me what can i do?......should i change my course?......i think i need not wait u ppl answer me ...i also know the answer....i cannot....my family members wont let me change.....especially my mum...she worry that i wont pass the bar test...and lawyer wont earn any money....lawyer is suffering for me....funny.....in her mind...she must be thinking that dentistry is not suffering for her daughter......and her daughter able to pass denstistry...but in fact...i have no such confident at all....as i am really tired..althought i only 2 months here ....
i really tired of study all of these stupid things....these is not the life i want....the life i want is a bit relasxing...not studying 24 hours....maybe some of u might think that i am a lazy girl...no!!......i just prefer freedom....freedom in doing whatever things that i prefer and depend on my mood.....heard lots of ppl says that dentist can earn lots of money but....surprisingly...min who is always a materialistic girl...does not happy to hear that...in fact...i just feel like....dunno how to describe that feeling...but for sure is ...i dun love to hear this news....can any of u tell me?....what is going on with me?....i always thought that only urself understand urself the best...but in fact...not really...i dun understand myself very well...i dunno whether i love dentistry o not...what i know is i feel very suffering whenever i open my book and studying....damn it...wanna faiil it...dun want to study it also dont dare.....cos i scare i will disappoint my parents..my family members...
ah ma de....min supposingly to be an optimistic girl...always smilling and happy in front of the ppl...but at the back....i dun dare to let ppl know my sadness...maybe that is the way i protect myself.....whenever i feel really sad and stress....thanks god for letting me having some nice friends.....always willing to acc me whenever i need them....no matter how late i call them...they wil still receive my call and wont scold me....as u know....malaysia time is later than india for 2 1/2 hours....
can any of u tell me what can i do?......should i change my course?......i think i need not wait u ppl answer me ...i also know the answer....i cannot....my family members wont let me change.....especially my mum...she worry that i wont pass the bar test...and lawyer wont earn any money....lawyer is suffering for me....funny.....in her mind...she must be thinking that dentistry is not suffering for her daughter......and her daughter able to pass denstistry...but in fact...i have no such confident at all....as i am really tired..althought i only 2 months here ....
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