ah....i really very tired of the damn life here...study study study.....the more i study...the more i want to go to hell....all of the things that i am studying now is not interesting at alll....i am not interested at all....ah...stress stress stress.....ah.....
i really tired of study all of these stupid things....these is not the life i want....the life i want is a bit relasxing...not studying 24 hours....maybe some of u might think that i am a lazy girl...no!!......i just prefer freedom....freedom in doing whatever things that i prefer and depend on my mood.....heard lots of ppl says that dentist can earn lots of money but....surprisingly...min who is always a materialistic girl...does not happy to hear that...in fact...i just feel like....dunno how to describe that feeling...but for sure is ...i dun love to hear this news....can any of u tell me?....what is going on with me?....i always thought that only urself understand urself the best...but in fact...not really...i dun understand myself very well...i dunno whether i love dentistry o not...what i know is i feel very suffering whenever i open my book and studying....damn it...wanna faiil it...dun want to study it also dont dare.....cos i scare i will disappoint my parents..my family members...
ah ma de....min supposingly to be an optimistic girl...always smilling and happy in front of the ppl...but at the back....i dun dare to let ppl know my sadness...maybe that is the way i protect myself.....whenever i feel really sad and stress....thanks god for letting me having some nice friends.....always willing to acc me whenever i need them....no matter how late i call them...they wil still receive my call and wont scold me....as u know....malaysia time is later than india for 2 1/2 hours....
can any of u tell me what can i do?......should i change my course?......i think i need not wait u ppl answer me ...i also know the answer....i cannot....my family members wont let me change.....especially my mum...she worry that i wont pass the bar test...and lawyer wont earn any money....lawyer is suffering for me....funny.....in her mind...she must be thinking that dentistry is not suffering for her daughter......and her daughter able to pass denstistry...but in fact...i have no such confident at all....as i am really tired..althought i only 2 months here ....
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Be Strong! thats all i can say!
But think of it as a start of a new begining! your sure to experience ups and downs in life and work/study is one of them. Struggle hard and succeed. No matter what have faith in yourself and also have confident you can do it! Cause i know you for a year girl! and i remember you as the hardworking and the girl that stuggled hard. We all did!!
Times can be down, you could be just having a faze. But nothing comes easy but the fruit of it maybe worth it in the end.
The decision is always in your hands and not your family or friends or even your mother. Cause your doing this for yourself. For your future! what you do now is what the future's going to turn out for you... I know its hard to dissapoint people and its hard to make the ^right^ desicion (If there ever is any)... cause everything happens for a reason.
It must be hard being such a distance from your family and have to live and independant life alone in a foreign land. As i know you had made great friends there! I hope you can get some support from them... I cant say its easy or take it one at a time cause i am not in your shoes to understand what your struggling at...
So, i hope i didnt write to much haha as you know i am very loso sometime. Whatever you do dont Give Up and believe in yourself but dont over stressed yourself. I wish you well and God Bless... Write and email to me if your free or call me on skype (followin proper timing)* haha but you can always seek me k? i am always here! Cheer Up girl!
take care and God Bless!
*hugs*
davin
hey!got new blog oso din tell me!aikss..haha...anyway u send tis post to me d...n hope u hv read my long reply!
n again i hope u dun be too stress!
TAKE IT EASY!! *like me* hehe..
HAPPY ALWAYS YA!!!!=)
Be strong and you will found that it's a way to prove that you've gone through the toughest part of your life. Believe in yourself. Gambateh!! ^^
hey min..(no, if u thought me (jacquelyn wong) the anonymous one who wrote the previous msg, then it's wrong..heheh..)this is my message for you, dearest. know what..ur struggles in doing something that u dont like at all is really like a living hell..cos professional courses like this has to be done with at least SOME interest. but hey u may wanna blame ur mum sometimes for forcing u in this course, but hopefully u can think on the brighter side of it.she wants a great future for her daughter.
however, min, on the other hand yea..whatever at all that ur goin thru, sufferings, tears, pain and distress..ANYTHING at all, u SHOULD and really MUST let ur dear parents know! i mean, at least they have an idea of what their daughter is goin thru..then overtime (hopefully)..if they know that their daughter is not able anymore..at least and (hopefully) they'll give in, and respect u if u wanna quit. (i mean that is really worst case scenario if u are really dying and keep failing-hopefully doesnt happen to u! i know how serious it can be)..u try to explain to them about ur capability and get closer to them, u know..i mean after all they are ur parents.
but dearest, whenever again, if u feel like u cant make it thru yet u know u could never ever hope to get out of it because of ur obligation to parents, well, just always remember, me here..am struggling hard too k.seriously, accounting is gonna be craziest in 2nd year..even my seniors were dying and MANY people fail in different units.very EASY to fail.(and davin,jowy,jiw tysr knew how dreadful that course was for me too..yeah..just remember i told u how much i cried too, k? haha..amazingly uncountable times.ah..hahahaha)..just as ur friends are there for u just like they were for me, im very sure u can go thru that as well..if i CAN, min dear, u CAN too...let's do this together k? everytime u feel lousy, just turn to this page (hopefully will boost u up)..or just message me and i'll call u if there's chance.
take care for now and yeah..KEEP GOING k? love you always^^
*hugsss*
jac
yo, len min, what happen to u? I feel so sad for u. Like what jackie said, u should tell ur parent about this problem. It is ture that every parent hopes their son and daughter do well in the future, but, if u think dentistry is out of ur hand, u should let them know, dont just force urself to adapt to the terrible situation, u will go crazy at last b4 u become a dentist ok! Davin also said that decision is in ur hands, not ur family or friends. Hey, u r 1 who studying or ur family? hehe, although sounds rude, it is a truth!
Seriously, u must find a way to settle down instead of struggling the course which u r not interested at all and have no idea at all! I feel so sad when i know about ur situation now, please la, inform ur parent and family, they are the 1 that u r closest to, they wont want to see their daughter suffering ok...anyway, when facing any problems, feel free to let me , jac or davin know la ok? Dont try to settle by urself, share with us....Good luck ya len min, god luck for ur future undertaking...i will always support u ..:p
sweet...sweet...sweet...lol..i dunno that got so many comments since i have not come here for so long time dy...muak muak muak...i will gambateh a!!!
hey, im here ! So happy to hear that u will GAMBATE, hahah...y cant u send me an email, jia_tsyr@hotmail.com , try this out! Unbelieveable, u read my blog, ou, feel so happy, i thought there are no 1 reading my blog. Im doing fine, having my last holiday, gonna go to school on monday already.. Oh ya, i called ms cheang that day, n she said that she wants to contact with all of us through mail ..cheang.peyshyuan@taylors.edu.my!! Hey, good luck ya...take good care of urself woo..
Good post.
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